A lot has happened since last May. I bought a house, went on vacation, moved, did lots of home improvement projects, got a new roof, got the dogs new haircuts, etc. It’s been super busy, but I’ve also spent a lot of time disconnecting from some of my electronics, hence the long gap in posting. Taking courses at the nearby college and reading new research papers at work to get my brain parts moving again and to stave off feeling stagnant.
I’ve enjoyed a lot of good times with friends, too, which is never a waste or regret. Two friends got married a few weeks ago. Most recently (as of this evening), one of my best friends gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. And next weekend I am having a cookout with my other best friends here, likely ending with cigars and whiskey around a fire pit. Despite all the changes going on this year so far, my primary emotions have been overwhelming gratitude and joy for the simple things.
Spending a lot of time with my dogs and hanging around the house has allowed me to decompress from some work stress. Genuinely down-sizing and taking many things to donation centers has helped me clear my head and my conscience of the self-doubt that always seems to linger when I’m letting go. I am optimistic about many parts of my life, though I’m sure the next six months will also elicit some major changes for me. I look forward to them, as I always do, forever living in the future while trying to stay present.
My family was safe through Hurricane Matthew. My dogs are doing well. My plants are beautiful. My friends are super supportive lately, and I am finding new facets to them that are both surprising and comforting. I have been able to reconnect with old friends and have it be as if no time has passed, which is the rarest treasure you can find. I could stand to lose a few pounds and I am trying to eat better for myself, but all in all, my life this year has been very much blessed and bittersweet.
“In one year from today, what word do you hope best describes your life?”
Here are some tidbits from my most recent lab tunes playlist.
“To love the right,
Yet do so wrong.
To be the weak,
Yet burn to be so strong.”
“There’s some things that I should never
Laugh about in front of family
In a week we’ll be together
Try to call you when I’m landed”
“And oh my love remind me, what was it that I said?
I can’t help but pull the earth around me, to make my bed
And oh my love remind me, what was it that I did?
Did I drink too much?
Am I losing touch?
Did I build this ship to wreck?”
“I see the sunrise creeping in
Everything changes like the desert wind
Here she comes and then she’s gone again
I’m just a traveller on this earth
Sure as my heart’s behind the pocket of my shirt
I’ll just keep rolling till I’m in the dirt
‘Cause I’m a traveller, oh, I’m a traveller
I couldn’t tell you honey, I don’t know
Where I’m going but I’ve got to go
‘Cause every turn reveals some other road
And I’m a traveller, oh, I’m a traveller”
“I will make my way across the fields of cotton
And wade through muddy waters one last time
And in my dreams I come out clean
When I reach the other side
Waste away the sunsets
Where rainbows never die”