Happy

A lot has happened since last May. I bought a house, went on vacation, moved, did lots of home improvement projects, got a new roof, got the dogs new haircuts, etc. It’s been super busy, but I’ve also spent a lot of time disconnecting from some of my electronics, hence the long gap in posting. Taking courses at the nearby college and reading new research papers at work to get my brain parts moving again and to stave off feeling stagnant.

I’ve enjoyed a lot of good times with friends, too, which is never a waste or regret. Two friends got married a few weeks ago. Most recently (as of this evening), one of my best friends gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. And next weekend I am having a cookout with my other best friends here, likely ending with cigars and whiskey around a fire pit. Despite all the changes going on this year so far, my primary emotions have been overwhelming gratitude and joy for the simple things.

Spending a lot of time with my dogs and hanging around the house has allowed me to decompress from some work stress. Genuinely down-sizing and taking many things to donation centers has helped me clear my head and my conscience of the self-doubt that always seems to linger when I’m letting go. I am optimistic about many parts of my life, though I’m sure the next six months will also elicit some major changes for me. I look forward to them, as I always do, forever living in the future while trying to stay present.

My family was safe through Hurricane Matthew. My dogs are doing well. My plants are beautiful. My friends are super supportive lately, and I am finding new facets to them that are both surprising and comforting. I have been able to reconnect with old friends and have it be as if no time has passed, which is the rarest treasure you can find. I could stand to lose a few pounds and I am trying to eat better for myself, but all in all, my life this year has been very much blessed and bittersweet.

“In one year from today, what word do you hope best describes your life?”

Happy.

Here are some tidbits from my most recent lab tunes playlist.

“To love the right,
Yet do so wrong.
To be the weak,
Yet burn to be so strong.”

 

“There’s some things that I should never
Laugh about in front of family
In a week we’ll be together
Try to call you when I’m landed”

 

“And oh my love remind me, what was it that I said?
I can’t help but pull the earth around me, to make my bed
And oh my love remind me, what was it that I did?
Did I drink too much?
Am I losing touch?
Did I build this ship to wreck?”

 

“I see the sunrise creeping in
Everything changes like the desert wind
Here she comes and then she’s gone again

I’m just a traveller on this earth
Sure as my heart’s behind the pocket of my shirt
I’ll just keep rolling till I’m in the dirt
‘Cause I’m a traveller, oh, I’m a traveller
I couldn’t tell you honey, I don’t know
Where I’m going but I’ve got to go
‘Cause every turn reveals some other road
And I’m a traveller, oh, I’m a traveller”

 

“I will make my way across the fields of cotton
And wade through muddy waters one last time
And in my dreams I come out clean
When I reach the other side
Waste away the sunsets
Where rainbows never die”

Edge of Twenty-Eight

I have been in sort of a funk. I think it will get better with some sunshine and vitamin D. I have been on a huge Stevie Nicks kick this last week. Well, and AC/DC and reggae fusion. My brain is weird. But they all help the lab work go by super fast.

I got to spend my Easter with some friends and their family, which was quite entertaining. It was nice to get out and visit people outside of work. I am grateful that I have friends here that not only accept me, but aren’t afraid to bring me home to be part of their personal lives. It does mean a lot, especially when you don’t have a support system nearby like most of my coworkers. I am also glad that they all have such great senses of humor.

Today was my 28th birthday. Not sure how to feel about it, really, or if I feel much about it at all. It was a busy work day, but good. But I haven’t really ever felt my age. I think it may be one of those things where I will one day feel MORE my age. Like growing into my actual age. Or not. Who knows. I guess it is important to acknowledge anniversaries whether or not we have some emotional attachment to them.

I found out that a dear old friend will be able to meet me in May at our vacation house on the beach. I am looking forward to that more than anything–it’s the most excited I’ve been in a long time. Maybe it’s the idea of reuniting with someone that really gets me. Someone that has seen me through my worst and still loves me. Someone that I don’t have to hide anything from at all or be afraid that they’ll reject me. It’s  easy to take friends for granted and lose touch, so I can’t wait to catch up.

I am thinking of taking a trip sometime later this year. Not sure where yet, but somewhere fun. A trip for myself. I need some space from both Maine and Georgia to recalibrate.

“Well, he seemed broken hearted
Somethin’ within him
But the moment
That I first laid
Eyes on him
All alone on the edge of seventeen”

“Your world keeps spinning and you can’t jump off
But I will catch you if you fall, I can’t tell you enough
I hate to hear that you’re feeling low
I hate to hear that you won’t come home

Why, should we care for what they’re selling us anyway
We’re, so young girl and you know

You don’t have to be there babe
You don’t have to be scared babe
You don’t need a plan, of what you want to do
Won’t you listen to the man that’s loving you”

“My mind won’t rest
and I don’t sleep
Not even in my dreams…

If you ever did believe,
for my sake…
If you ever did believe…”

 

My latest playlist tunes for super awkward lab dancing at the centrifuge:

C’mon Baby, Light Mah Fiyah

This week’s been tough and super busy at work, but going to bed early has been helping me stay ahead of getting the plague that has been circulating. Luckily, I have good friends, like Normand and Remmers, to whine and paw at me for encouragement (or is it food they want??).

There’s also my special guest….meet Mini-Torso! Bah-DAH!

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So, years ago, my mom found an androgynous mannequin in a thrift store and brought it home cause it needed a family (yes, we do shit like that). We frequently dressed it in holiday or seasonal apparel, like one does with inanimate anthropomorphized objects. Torso became part of the family, frequently appearing in the background of photos or serving to spook relatives that were sent over to feed animals while we were away on trips. Torso has since been retired to a local thrift store window.

After telling Squash this story, this was my next gift! A Mini-Torso! What? you might say. Isnt’t that just an artists drawing model minus a head? Sure, call it what you will. To me, it is Mini-Torso, ready to rumble and full of sass.

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Mini-Torso even knows a few hot dance moves…

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Mini-Torso recently assisted me in reviewing some candles. Of the three main brands purchased (Glade, Better Homes & Gardens, Yankee), I have rated them with comments below.

First up, the Glade small jar candle in “Frosted Cookie Party” flavor:

IMG_20150204_1715233192Candle: Glade
Flavor: Frosted Cookie Party (8/10)
Advertised Burn Time: Up to 28 hours (4 hr burn at a time)
Actual Burn Time (Continuous): 8.5 hours (4/10)
Comments: One of my favorite scents by far! Though they are smaller and don’t last as long, I do enjoy these for their wide variety of scents.

Overall Score: 12/20

 

 

Candle: Better Homes & GardensIMG_20150204_1716392242
Flavor: Warm Rustic Woods (6/10)
Advertised Burn Time: Up to 35 hours for the 18oz (4 hr burn at a time)
Actual Burn Time: 28+ hours (8/10)
Comments: I like these big candles because they are cheap, burn evenly and have rich scents that are seasonal. I also like the Lavender version, too.

Overall Score: 14/20

 

 

IMG_20150204_1717350132Candle: Yankee
Flavor: North Pole (Vanilla Mint) (10/10)
Advertised Burn Time: 65-90 hours (9/10)
Actual Burn Time: 80+ hours
Comments: My favorite candles! I greatly enjoy the scents and long burn time of these, even though they are more expensive. It evens out when you think of how many small candles you need to equal the burn time of one of these bad boys.

Overall Score: 19/20

 

Let’s all give Mini-Torso a round of applause for his wicked awesome “Vanna White” skills. I have other candle varieties I like, so I’ll keep adding to this review to include the soy-based and wood-wick brands.

Also, new developments in the egg experiment will be posted soon!! Excitement!